Villain of my own novel

[Trait: ??? (Cursed) activated perfectly.]

[Party member 'Anuke' has died.]

The Eye glanced at the notification pop up and suddenly felt strange while many things flashed through his mind, he got to know he was a man, many feelings, names, places and about himself as Eshwar, the kid who he thought was amusing was just him being him, many ugly truths, rage on many things including Quinn, a subtle pity for Isha which he was forcing off of his heart because that would change the way he treated her until now which he didn't want.

All those years of his life's pain had returned and forced themselves into him, ripping apart the being 'Eshwar' and turning him into an entirely different person, but....

Would 'Eshwar' change?

No!

Why?

Because all of those feelings were his to begin with, his ego was too big for it to crack from the feelings which were just repeating themselves! If he changed that would just be nonsense! But.....

Would he really be same person?

He was experiencing all of the emotions and pain at once which had happened to him as the years passed, and one would definitely be broken when he felt the same thing over and over, numbing his feelings and if he wanted to express them it would just be a fake expression.

Now, the being known as the Eye was forcing itself into 'Eshwar' numbing Eshwar's everything.... 'Everything,' a simple word that just simply defined an entire existence of the being named 'Eshwar,' the same existence the Eye endured 64 years of continuous torture just to be destroyed the next moment he defined....

Would 'Eshwar' and 'The Eye' simply let it go?

Never!

Now that the both knew they were one, he would give his everything to hold on to himself, like he has always done.

All 64 years of loneliness, struggle and all the strength he 'earned,' he would use everything to hold himself from changing. Doesn't matter he if remains the same or not, he wouldn't give in to the 'curse' nor would be let the being who cursed him be alive!

Eshwar who was in his mannequin body was floating in the middle of glitched space, he held his head in anguish, but not a single groan escaped his mouth, everything was returning to him.

Suddenly, Quinn's life began to flash through his mind, and Eshwar felt all of Quinn's pain he felt in his entire life in first person.

Eshwar's body manifested in that glitched space, with only half torn and tattered trousers. Slowly, stripes of bright crimson red slash-like marks began to appear on his body, and he felt the pain of being slashed in the same place.

Slowly, the bright crimson red stripes appeared on his shoulders, arms, forearms, chest, waist and lastly his back which was more than all of stripes which appeared in front of his body and he felt all the pain of those slashes of swords, daggers and claws though they weren't anything new to him, it's not like they don't hurt, but he just clenched his teeth and endured because he felt like if he screamed he would lose himself.

Now, Anuke's life flashed through his mind, all the abuse she endured during her stay with her so-called parents, all the mental and physical torture that little child had to endure before fleeing to the Sunshine Orphanage, and, though it was only a little, all the happy moments she had when caring for children in the orphanage, meeting Isha and Eshwar.

He felt like he was in a child's body as he felt the same amount of pain she had to go through when she was abused, every single slap, punch, and many bruises caused by her father to her and her mother, and she who abused Anuke to relieve herself from all the pent-up stress and pain because she couldn't do anything to her husband, Anuke's emotions of thinking she shouldn't have been born, each and every single emotion and pain of hers was felt by Eshwar.

SHWOOSH

Suddenly, Eshwar's body trembled violently and turned stiff, his head shook side to side violently and every time a face other than Eshwar's flashed, a mannequin head, Quinn's face, Anuke's face and Eshwar's face, four faces flashed forming a semi-circle, their faces seemed to be screaming in anguish, but Eshwar's face was grinning ominously with a wolf-life fanged mouth.

The other three faces zoomed out as if running from Eshwar before pulling back inside him, his shaking face came to a halt, and only Eshwar's face remained and a dark purple hue sprang out forming a flame-like pattern, but then suddenly the flame-like hue crackled before forming claw-like edges.

BOOM

Then, all of a sudden, an unknown feeling enveloped him, which was him recognizing himself as 'I,' and awakening his sense of self.

"Well, that was one violently emotional roller coaster." I mumbled out with a apathetic expression.

'At least 'I' didn't change....'

"First..." I looked down at the glitched space in an indifferent expression.

"Let's get out of here."

I glanced at my right hand as it slowly froze turning translucent light blue forearm and....

CREAK (5x)

The translucent light blue fingers creaked as they grew, forming a the veeeerrrrryyyyy familiar claws, I stared at them with in satisfaction with a an apathetic expression and punched down pierced through at the glitched space.

The glitched space cracked around my claws, and small glass-like glitched space cracked and fell before transforming into magic power that dissolved in mid-air.

'I'm somewhere mid-air....'

"And it's raining...." I mumbled as I stared at the water droplets raising up to the ground (?)....

"I'm upside down?" I slightly tilted my head and jumped up, before landing exactly at the small crack that turned into a giant one in an instant, I crossed my hands behind my back and slowly descended from the giant crack that I had unknowingly broken in the sky, I controlled the mana around me and slowly descended from the sky, enjoying the scenery in front of me.

I was in Sector five, above the academy, which had turned into a pile of debris, and Isha, Henry, Arngrim, Core, and Louie were staring at me... or the giant crack behind me, but I could definitely feel Isha's gaze on me, my lips twitched and curled up forming a small smile, and my eyes moved towards Louie, who was carrying Quinn's dead body behind his back, and anger rose from the depths of my entire being.

"How ironic."